This morning I heard the best description of what it feels like to become a parent. Surprisingly, the description came from someone who has never had a child.
I filled in on morning show today for the first time since before I gave birth to Harper. As I was getting ready to walk out into the studio, our producer Marisa came up and told me good morning and asked me how I liked being a mom. I immediately lit up and told her how much I loved it. “I don’t mean to sound cheesy,” I said, “but, being a parent automatically softens your heart and makes you look at EVERYTHING completely different than you did before.” I continued to go on and on about motherhood and how precious and special it was. That’s when the most genius words came out of Marisa’s mouth: “Wow, it sounds like a whole ‘nother experience – like something divine.”
Boom! She nailed it right on the head! Being a parent IS divine. It’s sort of like a religious experience! I have tried to find the one, right word that could sum up exactly how I have felt over the past 15 weeks… but here, in just a 5 minute conversation, Marisa got it. D-I-V-I-N-E!
For me, there are a million reasons why my parenting journey has been divine. Other than the delicious love I get to experience for and from my sweet daughter, I also find myself wanting to improve as a person. I want to be just about every “-ER” I can be: kinder, gentler, stronger, smarter, braver… the list goes on and on and on and on. I find myself being called to really work on being a better individual. I am drawn to philanthropic opportunities… I am trying to be more involved in church… and I am trying to set a good example to others (improve attitude, watch my tone, be less negative, etc), and I am trying to keep my household as happy as it can possibly be.
All of those are a work in progress… but one thing I know for certain I have improved upon – is letting stuff go. Before baby came, I was high-strung, uptight, and tended to be a perfectionist who had to have control. Since Harper has come into my life… I just don’t sweat the small stuff anymore. I can’t – because at the end of the day, there will always be something MORE important than whatever was causing me a headache.:
Oh – I got a flat tire on my way to work! No worries, because Harper will be home when I get there.
Shoot – I washed my husband’s I-POD in the washer! Oh well, I get to take Harper to the park later.
Dang it!!! I broke a dish in the kitchen sink. No big thing – time to give Harper her bath.
No MATTER WHAT is causing drama or annoyances in my day, I will ALWAYS have sweet baby girl… period. And to be honest with you – it is such a HUGE relief to just let those little, unimportant issues go. It’s forced me to leave work at work, and keep my family time sacred. It’s forced me to turn over my stresses to God. It’s forced me to focus on what I have in my life NOW, rather than worrying too much about tomorrow. What a huge blessing, right?
So, I have come to the conclusion (thanks to Marisa!) that motherhood is divine. Baby Harper is divine. Experiencing motherhood WITH baby Harper is divine.